I have been in love so many times, waited years for them to see the light and show up at my door, and they never do. I know what it's like to waste my time holding onto hope that doesn't exist. How you try so hard all the time and you'll always stay the bestfriend, nothing more. I've sort of become used to this that I've become numb. I'm telling you, unreciprocated love is a waste of time and you should just move on because it's only a fool's hope. They can't see you or love you? It's not your burden to bear as it's their loss cause they'll never know who you are or what a great person you can be. I know why we wait months and years for them to love us. It's because if we let go now, we'll feel that in the future if we keep holding on to it they might see the light and notice we've been there all along. But the day NEVER comes. Then when we realise our fingers have grown cold and brittle that we're being forced to let go, only then we can see how much time and energy we have wasted chasing after this unattainable dream, when we could've used it all to do great things in life.

I know I've been in love, and I have to keep telling myself why it's not worth it. Because I've never gotten anything I've asked for and I've sort of accepted that it will never ever happen to me at all. Some people are meant to be alone. Maybe it's my calling. A wanderer, alone at crossroads.

Labels: dreams, i swear i'm trying to get better, letting go, sad, unrequited