You are walking down the street one day and your foot get stuck in a hole. You can't pull your foot out. You're stuck there, under the rain, the blazing hot sun, and the cold wind. Everyone is moving around you, everyone is moving. Someone presses the fast forward button on the remote, and they move around you like blurry shadows caught in the momentum of life. And you're stuck, unmoving. The universe doesn't wait for you. The universe doesn't care. Everyone is living, everyone is moving on, everyone is drifting further and further away from you. Sometimes, just sometimes, you feel like you should be out of the hole after a while but then you're fine with being caught up in your own world. You're watching, quietly, at the corner of your eye. You fall in love with a passing stranger, you watch the people around you chase their dreams and fall in love with other people, you watch your own hands turn pale and dry. You hope for someone to notice you and help you out. But then you're stuck. Everyone is moving so fast now, they can't see you anymore. They're running, running, running... away.

Now you're here all alone and everyone has moved on. How do you go on from here? How do you catch up? A part of you wants to be stuck forever. You want to be living in the moment, stuck. A part of you is trying to drag you along with everyone else but you're kicking and screaming on the floor in protest. Who needs more, when this is ideal? What happens in the future, what if things never stay the same, what if you'll never feel this way again?

You're looking for the remote, but there's no remote. Where's the stop button?




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I'm so emotionally stretchedddddd. And I ran 3.5km today and walked 1.5! yay yay yay will last longer next time.

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