I watched Oprah in the morning and it was about the laws of attraction. What you think is what you get. We constantly send messages to the universe. Pessimism will be rewarded with a suckier life, and optimism- the rest of your life will fall into place. It was quite enlightening. I was hot and bothered in the morning, until I imagined cheesing giving me a call at 6.

True enough, cheesing called me at 6.45 and he made this sing-song exclamation, 'I'M BACKKKK!' I've never been more relieved. After the nights dreaming about cheesing being mauled by tigers or molested by giant baboons off the streets of malaysia, he's back. His private parts are still intact, I hope. LOL. So now Ana is a happy happy girl. Yay, I can start doing FYP now.

I was examining how I've subconsiously applied the laws of attraction. I had a vision of me carrying one of the polar bears at kiddy palace, and guess what, not long after that we were at the arcade and we won a polar bear! I've repelled malay boys somehow (by the power of my thinking, voila!) Don't get me wrong, I'm not a sarong party girl, nor do i gnaw on the fingers of chinese men. I am attracted to anyone with enough level of sophistication. Anyway, I had a thought that I was going to be kissed when I'm 18, and it came true.

So on the show these life coaches were saying that we should not obssess over the thought. Instead we just think about it, and then we surrender, and the universe will take over. Most of the cases, my thoughts that had come true were never in my mind obssessively. It was something that was good for me, but I didn't need it. I am content with my life in every way possible though I am aware that I ramble about the suckiness of it a lot, yes. The thing is, if you think life sucks, it will SUCK.

Everyday I need to look at myself in the mirror and exclaim, 'I love you, Rafhana! I love life and life loves me!' We wouldn't believe it at first, we're probably just saying it for the sake of saying it. But in order to grow a tree, we need to plant a seed, and these affirmations are our seed, and from that we water it, care for it, and it will grow into our tree. I'm pumped to grow into a better person. I'm motivated to improve the quality of my life. I'm happy with all the friends I have, I'm happy because I've got cheesing, I'm happy that my standard of living is acceptable (and luxurious on good days.) We can't have the best of everything, but I am grateful for the things I already have.

So cheers to that, I'm to start doing my fyp now before someone rips off my head.

Labels: happy talk, loveee, pondering, positive thinking