"You don't always get the dream house, but you get awfully close."


I don't know why I'm always at the suffering end. It seems like life hasn't turned for the better. All I get is turmoils and one big blow after another. Maybe god doesn't care, that's why. Why my happiness lasts only for a day and the other days are just bleak and filled with despair. There is no end to this tunnel, there is no end to this rainbow. Maybe there really is no end. Maybe happiness doesn't exist. Maybe I'm meant to give and not to take. Maybe I deserve nothing.

Maybe I am nothing.

So lifeless. This life is a fucking lie and it's so tiring to live it anymore. I'm just tettering on the edge of a building, waiting, waiting, grabbing hold on whatever that passes by. Why do I keep tettering? Why not jump? What am I waiting for?


I really want you to really want me but I really don't know if you can do that.
I know you want to know what's right but I know it's so hard for you to do that.
And time's running out as often it does and often dictates that you can't do that.
But fate can't break this feeling inside that's burning up through my veins.
I really want you.
I really want you.
I really want you - now.
No matter what I say or do, the message isn't getting through,
And you're listening to the sound of my breaking heart.
I love this song now.



I really want this puppy because I'm feeling very sad nowwwww. :'(

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