This morning I woke up from the most wonderful dream I've had in years. You know how in dreams your significant other always have a blank face and you wake up not quite knowing who he was? Well I KNOW. I don't know him, but at least I KNOW how he looks like. He is a hybrid of Paul Rudd and Mike Ruffalo, wavy hair down to half of his neck, broad shoulders, scruffy, tallll. Oh my god, you know how people ask me what's my dream guy like and I usually give that mediocre stupid personalities. I know now! tehehehehehe. I have a dream guy!!!! ZOMGXXXSSDNLWBB. My dream guy appreciates my quirky-ness, I get to punch his chest and squeeze his nipples and at the end I get to kiss him while pinning him to the ground.

Anything can happen. I will hold onto that for now.

SOOOOOOOOOOO.

I have decided that I will dissolve my hate, resentment and pessimism from TODAY onwards. I am a STRONG, CONFIDENT WOMANNNNNNNNN! In that dream I wasn't so screwed up. I was happy. I want that to happen to me. Anything can happen. What I want above all is for me to love myself and love others. Forgive them, forgive their unforgiveness. I am outspoken when I want to be, but that doesn't happen always. It doesn't happen because I hate myself and feel inferior so I resent my own voice and opinions. I am going to lose weight! I am going to wear nicer underwear and clothes! I will wear high heels! I AM A STRONG CONFIDENT WOMAN WHO DOES NOT NEED TO ____.

shit sorry I'm drunk.

can't take my eyes off youuuuuuu.

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