I decided to write about an incident that made me cringe. And it appeared in this month's RYL ezine. I didn't win, though I thought mine was spectacular *coughs*. Damn, I wanted that free RYL bracelet.

(Note: When I self-praise, I actually mean the opposite. You know, sarcasm. Well, fyi, in case you get the idea that I'm one narcissistic bitch.)

My entry:


Hey, that happened while I was in primary 2!

EDIT:

Mum just said to my sister, 'DO YOU KNOW WHAT? I HATE YOU! I REALLY HATE YOU, DO YOU KNOW THAT?'

Now tell me that my family isn't weird.

Can't she say anything nicer to lift our spirits? Hell, why is everything so depressing? That is a major crush to anyone's self esteem. During the times she claimed me as 'useless' was depressing enough to hinder my progress for the whole of my fucking life, and damn, 'hate' is more harsh. So fucking harsh. Come on man, she's only fucking 11, give her a break. She's immature because she is ONLY 11! Sheesh, for fucks sakes, can't anyone be mature anymore?

yes yes mum, i hate you, though i've never said it to your face.

And my dad yelled back at her. Because she says any fucking thing she wants without thinking of the consenquences. I'm not selfish or sadistic in any way. I've been abused, and I don't want anyone to suffer that. I don't one anyone to end up like me, battling with 'things' throughout your whole childhood and teenhood(wth, I think there is such a term.)

Blah, sometimes I don't know anything anymore man. And it's worse that I'm not doing anything about it, just because I care more about my own ass.