I'm sorry I can't be there for you if you can never be there for me. I don't enjoy the superhero syndrome. I want to be saved too. I'm guessing it's time for me to save myself. I shouldn't waste my time being there for someone who doesn't give a damn. It's such a waste of time, knowing they'd never be there when you need them the most.

Sometimes you give too much, until you can't give anymore. You become this empty husk, and you give up on your whole life.

I have always been utterly alone.

All fucking alone. Who are you to say you were always there?

Just thank god, these past weeks have been better for me. Thank god for the gyl I've made 2 new friends, and they have been amazing. Funny how you could suddenly open up to someone you barely know. It's just spectacular. I don't feel so alone now.

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Be glad I've mentioned you two!