I was thinking about what to blog about when I get home.
It was supposed to be,

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! *insert swear word here*

Thinking how pathetically stupid I've been, thinking about saving myself from embarassment rather than DOING SOMETHING ABOUT IT. God damn it, it's not really easy being shy you know. People seem to think I'm proud and 'action' and my dear Jasmine says it, but I'm not. I'm just really frightened to approach anyone.

Now back to what I was saying...

You know what?! OMG I think even if it's for a little while, I'M SO BLOODY LUCKY TODAYYYYYY.

Right now I suppose my face is red and I'm grinning to myself yet again. It's probably not even safe to blog about it. But hehehehehe. I'm not excited or anything, I just feel witty and gay(happy)! I could've skipped all the way home and eat ice-cream and whatnot.

Seriously, I thought it would just be like every other day, depressing and lonely as always. Cause I somehow failed to be friendly at least. Not that I purposely wanted to, but I was scared of not being accepted. I was about to eat my way to obesity and hoped I drowned in all the gassy hari raya drinks at home.

If there wasn't a turning point, do you think I'd be grinning right now?

=) =) =) *x hundred smiley faces*

HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.
YUM YUM YUM.
ME LIKE MY CUTE GUY!

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!

I'm going to let myself be happy today. I don't care if happiness is totally strange to me. I don't have to put myself down with comments like, 'right, like you're worth it'. I was about to say I was a worthless pile of shit when it suddenly dawned upon me that shit do have value. It fertilises plants and make good fruits! If I was a worthless pile of trash, ever heard of the saying, 'one's man trash is another man's treasure'? See, always look on the positive side of things.

I will let this feeling stay here for a while. I want to prance in a little dress and lick lollipops. I will let myself be happy today.

YAY.