Hello delightful children!

I don't think I should apologise for not updating. (Forgive me for being an insensitive bastard.) My brain isn't in good shape and my fingers have gone all wonky(with incredible holes on them.) And for godsake my life isn't worth mentioning about, and I haven't got any clue on what to blog about.

So blast off now, because I will again, drone on and on about my dimwitted life.

Dear delightful children. My usage of internet (and this loving laptop of mine) has gone down in the past few days because I have finally decided to get my life started. Started as in, knitting, beading, jewellery making, diy-ing, crafting, and such, for my interest lies there. (I love war movies and body building, but I still stick to the girly stuff!) I tried taking pictures of them so I could post them on craftster or something for opinions(on pricing) but the photos didn't turn out so well. Ah well, another time perhaps, maybe during the DAY with great lighting, because the flash and dodgy camera didn't do the jewellery justice at all.

My dad has gone throwing his money away again, and my family is in dire need of some moolah(and he acts like he doesn't know anything about it. Mum pays his car money and does the bills while Dad buys a new room for my sister and probably some handphone gadgets. Haha, sorry dad.) It's pathetic that I have to go write down about my financial crisis here, but yeah, that's just how the household is. I meanwhile, have the hospital bill(dengue, my friend) hovering over my head and the hospital called me once asking when will I pay them, and my school fees just waiting right there. I feel really sorry that my family can't afford a lot of stuff right now (and yet, we buy large quantities of food. sigh) and I can't afford anything, and now I've gone beyond my spending limit. I fucking suck that I can't do anything about it. I can't work because my mum doesn't allow it. So here I am, embarking on other ways to earn money.

Like an online shop, for example.

As I said to my sister before, I feel like a Min-Hyorin(Goong stuff, not like you know anything about it.) Trying to live luxurious lifestyles but really really in debt here and there. Once again, I try to blame it on myself for being such a jinx to the family.

But we've got to stand up right, fight the stuffs being thrown as us, and find new ways to upgrade? Oh fuck, I fucking suck for even writing about this. But it feels good to let this load off my chest (so no one would ask me out for expensive dinners and such! HAHA. But I will gladly spend a few cents for a mouldy muffin at starbucks for Xtine cause I have to teach her how to bind off!)

Now that dear aunt agony is over, I must inform you that I obtained an A-ish grade for my speech (She said A-ish, so I don't know what it really means.), failed Electronics(SIGH.), had a feast in PizzaHut with the class, and I AM GOING OFF FOR A TWO DAY TRIP TO MELAKA TOMMOROW. STFU, I told you I can't afford to fly elsewhere. Fuck you. I know thou art laughing right now. So fuck you, I hate you.

I don't even know why I feel so worked up when people laugh at me when I'm ONLY going to malaysia. You know what, I haven't been anyway further than Thailand or Indoneia okay, because I fucking suck, and my poor parents have 4 kids and we can't afford to go further, so shut the fuck up alright. Now the truth is out, so fuck off. I'm so sick of pretending to be financially okay.

GRAH.

Bye, I'll be back on Sunday night.