I do not believe in besties. What in the world is 'bestie' anyway? It's a wonder how people come out with new words. Can't you just use 'bestfriend'? Isn't it more sincere, more charming, more real?

I think I am incapable of being human. I had coffee with Xtine during my 5 hours break yesterday and realised how dead I am. I mean, I don't talk, I say 'anything', I just don't know how to talk anymore. I have been so cooped up alone that I have to put in a lot of effort to talk to someone, like a real person. Don't I suck Xtine? I think I have very much changed since secondary school. I don't get to meet with my secondary school friends because they are always too busy, and now even if I see them, there is a tinge of awkwardness to it. I don't know, it's just weird I guess. When I am with company, I feel much less human. It's like a rock or something that is lodged inside my throat and it's hard to get it out.

Oh why oh why.

Okay, I'll stop whining. I don't know why people associate comtemplating with whining or bitching. It's just thoughts, only fucking thoughts.

Who are you to assume when you don't know the situation.