I think I'm addicted to skipping classes. Whoopdefuckingdoo, I skipped Mechanics tutorial and lecture. So I had lunch with the starvation army (i.e the people who's been deprived of lunch at school for a month) , went for Thermofluids lecture and went home. Told people I still needed to 'celebrate'. I'm just tired and sleepy, and can't get anything into my head, so no point really in staying.

Well, I'm home now, sniggering when the thought of everyone else stuck in class with the 'follow me' lecturer. I'm better of learning things on my own.

Yesterday was okay. I mean, really. My aunt's house reeked of cats. I think it's hilarious what comes up as a conversation topic when you've got nothing to say. I've just found out my mum works in the plastic surgery department (nyeheheh, shows how disconnected I am.) and the women talked about breast implants and such lol. You know when muslims die, we've got to remove whatever 'artifical' implants? Like breast implants, susut, and all that stuff. So my aunt said, imagine this 90 year old women all wrinkly with breasts of tip top condition, and having a surgery to remove it. Hahaha, it was funny imagining it. Then my mum goes on saying, 'Hey you know, if you have breast implants, your boobs won't move? The doctor will move you into various positions and your breasts wouldn't move still. And they'd ask me, how do they look? Are they nice?'

Hahahahaha.
So my aunt says, 'If I were you, I would 'dengki'(I don't know what's it called in english. It's like, a bad thing.) I would say, 'eh ehh, no the right one must go up a bit, yeah, the the left one, make it lower... that's it, very nice.' Haha, sekali dah habis, nanti bende dier jadi bengkok, senget. Satu kat atas, satu kat bawah. '
Again, I'm too lazy to translate. Gosh, but it was hilarious. Omg, women.

We went to Mama Ros' house after that. She used to live in the flat behind my grandma's, and my grandma used to babysit her children, so we're like sort of a family, kinda thing. I haven't seen her in ages. She had a stroke, and can't remember stuff, and she's really thin and her hair is all white now. She used to be this plump fierce woman, and I can't see that person anymore. Adib wasn't at home, but Fendi was. Everyone else calls them Abang Adib and Abang Fendi, but I'm just rude since I was born, so they're just Adib and Fendi to me. Haha, I call my older cousins just by their name.

So Fendi goes, 'Semalam best ah! Rumah keling terbakar! Shiok seh, abeh tu Fendi *does the weird fireman action thing* Tapi makcik-makcik sebuk arh... (blah blah) Orang hari raya pakai baju kurung, kite pakai uniform. Ape sajeee lahhhh!'
He's just so animated, and like a kid really. I haven't seen him in ages, so he didn't recognise me. So he got a big shock when he found out that I was the one sitting beside him. lol. Gosh, he was really fun to watch. My mum and aunties are like sisters to him, and they were laughing like shit watching him talk and whispered, 'ultraman'. Cause when he was little he used to tell them some ultraman episodes with that kind of enthusiasm. Oh my god, it was so funny. Turns out, he's going to get engaged next year. I was shocked. Cause he's like, a kid! I mean, he's 24 but he still has his childish enthusiasm. Hard to believe he's that big now.
I used to play with them as a kid. Before my sister was born, I was literally alone. I didn't have any cousins to play with, so they were my playmates. Haha, fun remeniscing the past. My parents used to take us to the zoo, and they were like my brothers. But I was more close to Adib. Okay okay, I bathed with him when I was a kid okay. That was how close we were. Lol. Once our school was on fire, he went all over the school to look for me, only to find out I've gone home. I'm still touched, even to this day. As you get older, probably the 'love' just fades away as you drift further apart. And you think you can try to breach the distance, but you can't. It's just gone forever, no matter how hard both sides hope to rekindle the lost frienship.
That is exactly what is happening to me. I can't connect with my cousins anymore. We've sort of moved on. We've drained our emotional connections and friendship. Everything is lost.

I wish everything was the same. I wish we never grew up; I wish we never got tired of each other. Sigh.

Lol, and the whole time my aunt kept calling me 'pengantin'(bride, in english.)

By 10pm, everyone dispersed and went home. ):

Sadness aside, here are pictures of ze fat and obese me.

ACHTUNG! VERY UGLY!
I'm just trying to gain confidence posting pictures. Bleh.

*cringes*


So the day started of with this accidental Eowyn pose. You know, the Eowyn pose in LOTR in her sheild maiden dress? Forgive my ugly face and fat body.


Me and my sayang. Haha.


Alone, vain and ugly picture. OMG. *cringe*
I want to look normal, not ugly. But still, at least god has given me a face.


Me and my irritating sister. I have this weird relationship with her.
Now, that's not so bad is it? (I mean, my dorky face.)


I intended a contorted expression. I've acheived a distorted ugly one.
Again, trying out various 'act cute' poses.

The End.
Hope you survived the horrendous pic post.

If you haven't figured out already, THAT is the white dress I was talking about.

I'm listening to 'Heart' soundtrack. Help.