I am a bigger geek than you'd ever imagine. I'm geeky and proud.

I LOVE Lord of The Rings. My family almost went insane once because I was reciting the scripts and talking a lot about LOTR and Aragorn and Faramir and Eowyn. Okay, I will admit this: I know the script to LOTR. I memorised TTT and ROTK the most. For a point of time, I also knew elvish. I always have LOTR marathons during the holidays, without fail (except the June holidays, for I was busy with Grey's Anatomy.) And whenever I watch LOTR, I will recite the script out loud. So that is why you should never ever watch LOTR with me. I spent most on my money on LOTR (meaning, I spent the most money on one subject. LOTR beats Johnny Depp.) I have 1 FOTR, 2 TTT, 1 ROTK VCD, and a COLLECTOR'S EDITION ROTK DVD, with a Minas Tirith statue, Howard's Shore orchestra concert thing DVD, and I'm going to purchase FOTR CE Edition soon with the Argonath Statue. I have 2 'One Ring', a Gondor's crest, an elven keychain, and ROTK soundtrack, a deck of cards, a framed poster, and I can't remember haha. But I will demand a Galadriel ring for my wedding. When I have enough money, I will buy Aragorn's sword (Elendil) and Gandalf's staff. My love for warfare started from LOTR, and I dream of having white horses. And haha, my favourite line from FOTR is, 'In place of a dark lord, you shall have a queen! not dark but beautiful as the dawn, treacherous as the sea! All shall love me and despair!'

I also study Eowyn's dresses and tried to recreate them, but to no avail. I studied Elven designs and will paint the mural Arwen has in her room, on my wall when I have my own room. During the next holidays I will re-learn Elvish. I will influence my family to start speaking the elven tongue.

And I love councilofelrond.net, which rocks.

I started portrait drawing because of LOTR. The first face I ever drew was Arwen's. Hence, my interest in that area. I love drawing things I love, and the things I love are faces. And my when I draw or write, I listen to soundtracks from LOTR. I memorised the songs, the elvish lyrics and all.

When I have money I will move to New Zealand, and live in Tw-something, where Minas Tirith was supposed to be.

If I watched Star Wars, I would probably be a Star Wars geek too, but I don't. Because LOTR is like the best thing in the world. And Star Wars make me sleep.

I also LOVE Phantom Of the Opera. Yes, I memorised 'Down Once More' which is like the longest piece! I have yet to memorise PONR, which is like the sexiest and most orgasmic song. My future husband will wear the red death costume on his wedding and wear the phantom's ring and mask, and butt padding, because I said so.

I'm a geek and a good geek, and the generous geek, so I'm very proud of myself for that!

HAHA!

I don't mind being ugly and naked, I just want my fair share of LOTR products!







EDIT:
OMG THE PEOPLE ON BARRY PEPPER'S WEBSITE WHEN TO ROGER MARIS GOLF TOURNAMENT AND MET HIM AND TALKED TO HIM!!!!!!
I'M SO JEALOUS. THEY EVEN GOT TO GO OUT LATER AND GET DRINKS WITH HIS CREW.

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Phantom by ~silenceana on deviantART

I'm done, i'm done, i'm done! But you've got to be crazy to think I'm happy with it.

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You know how girls want a knight in shining armour? I don't really fancy shining armours, except for Gondor's armours. Okay well, I'm dreaming of a rouge in a black cape, who has this really aggressive and cold persona. He probably is the leader of a mercenary and is wanted for the brutal killings. (Sounds very much like Bran in SOTS. Oh my darling Bran.) So he is this rouge who has never loved before, and is deprived of his manly needs. Deep inside he is this protective man, a dangerous lover, and he is so badly scarred emotionally, that his heart is inflamed with years and years of tears. And right now, I think I sound like I would like some kind of a Don Juan.

And then you know when you watch sad movies, you feel like you would like to reach out to that man and help him, care for him, and love him. (The way I feel about Phantom and Bran, Haha, okay whatever, shut up.) You feel like you can help and love this character unconditionally.

But then I know if this Phantom comes along, I will not be able to help him. I know I will not be able to reach out to this individual and show him a beautiful reflection and then just love him. It's like a father trying to give birth when he hasn't got a uterus. You can't love if you have never loved anyone. You can't heal someone when you have not yet cured. If I could ever say to Phantom that his imperfection doesn't mean he deserve a life of solitute, I wouldn't even believe it if I told myself that. I will break mirrors, I will love someone obsessively, and I will live alone if I felt like I deserved it.

The thing about Phantom of the Opera that I love was that I could connect to it. I felt it. It stabbed my heart right there. At first it was like, 'I wish I could hold him and love him.' Then it just dawned upon me that 'That is me.' You won't even believe it if I tell you. It's not really me, I don't have a deformity, I didn't have to live in the Opera House or was ostracized. But I know that feeling of having to hide your face because you feel that you're so ugly, or that you don't deserve friends or companionship because of a deformity you think you have, and people hurt you so much and the only way to get back is just to spit back at them. I know how you really like someone, and it becomes an obsession. I know the darkness, and how you think it's freedom to be able to run around alone, but all it is, is just loneliness. And I cried so much everytime I watch it. It's so close to home, and I wish I could save him from his solitute.

Say you'll share with me one love, one lifetime ...
Lead me, save me from my solitude ...
Say you want me with you, here beside you ...
Anywhere you go let me go too -

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Reasons why I am a happy shit.

1) I have bought the Phantom of The Opera DVD, watched it again last night, and am completely obsessed with Phantom & Gerard Butler. I watched the special features and I feel that my life has been fulfilled. (Gerry is amazing and sensational and hot and I love his teeth.)

2) I bought Shantaram.

3) I am going to wrap Shantaram.

4) I am going to finish a portrait of my sister today.

5) Someone new has added me on their watchlist.

6) Gerry Butler is a scots man, and I love Scottish men.

7) I think I am going to make a list of hot men.
(Johnny Depp, Barry Pepper, Christian Bale, Gerard Butler, David Wenham, Joseph Sitora, and etc.)

8) I think I will try to drill a hole in my bedroom wall so I can hang up my LOTR framed poster.

9) I have memorised most of the script of LoTR, mostly in TTT and ROTK. But the point is, I am going to watch PoTO a million more times and memorise the script. Haha okay, I am a freak.

10) I love Gerry's teeth, Barry's nose, Johnny's jaws, Wenham's nose, Bale's lips.

Now the bad news.

1) Cousins are here, so I can't sing for 2 weeks, no privacy, stupid noisy kids, smelly toilet, stupid boys.

2) I am fat. Haha, oh wait, I don't think I've said that before.

3) I love Gerry and far away men. Which means, I don't like nearby boys. Which means I don't care about how I look. Which means, acne is taking over my life.

I could go on and write a book about my plight. So I guess I will stop now.

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Gerard Butler is LOVE. Okay, I am going to call him Gerry now. I went Gerry crazy after watching Reign of Fire, and I've just watch Phantom of the Opera, and I love him more.

Phantom of the Opera is depressing and it makes me want to cry for months and kill myself. Alone, for the rest of his life. It's like he was fated to be so alone because of his deformity. And the song 'learn to be lonely' is just so heartwrenching, I think I could die.

Okay well, I love Gerard Butler.

Gerard Butler is LOVE.
He is the SEXGOD.
The nice man.
Shit, I want to marry him.

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