I have to say this real bad. I hate looking at pictures of hot people. Just because it makes me feel disgusted about myself and feel more insecure about my 'imperfections'. Yeah, what happened to the 'i'm grateful' post? Sorry, just can't last all the time, okay? So just the fuck leave me alone and let me stay in this shitty place so I could feel bad about myself.

Sure, do you think I don't want to do anything about it? Lose weight, put on make up, be fucking fake so everyone would LOVE me. I'm so fucking sick of being undesirable and OBESE and fucking grotesque. So what I say, "I'm going to go to the gym everyday and I'll start being skinny and I'll be hot". FUCK FUCK FUCK! Everyone laughs. Hot people are people who are born with it.

How the fuck do you think it makes me feel spending 2 years around guys who whistle and swoon over hot girls. They talk to you, this and that, they get so fucking excited over OTHER PEOPLE, sure you like the company, you like the extra business classes spent talking about some hot chick. You like it, it makes you important. But then they're just your friends. Hell in the 2 years, NO ONE WOULD EVER GIVE A SHIT ASS FUCKING MINUTE TO EVEN LOOK AT YOU YOU PIECE OF UGLY SHIT. You're just this girl people make friends with but never actually LIKE. Like the role of my freaking life has drifted to being the sick understanding friend instead of the leading lady.

I've always fucking wished I was the fucking leading lady for a change. I wish I was hot, I wish people would swoon and fall at my feet. FUCK. I wish I wasn't everyone's ugly friend who didnt deserve a shit bit of attention. I FUCKING HATE THIS I FUCKING HATE THIS I FUCKING HATE THIS. THIS WORLD IS SHALLOW, personality can't survive. We're all people consumed in looks and fucking boobs.

Please wait while I cut off my face.

Labels: bitching, shallow shits