I AM ADDICTED TO 'FRIENDS'. I meant Friends in Manhattan, Chandler blah blah blah. I have been doing absolutely nothing but watch 'friends' back to back. (What do you think an idiot I was, why would I be even addicted to my friends? Haha.) Okay well, I have to wait until I get my allowance for another month before I buy season 3 and 4. I can actually do it, since I have around hundred bucks saved last month, but I have this Nikon to think about.

I feel lower than rock bottom. As Rachel Green puts it, 'Rock bottom, a pile of crap, and then me.' You know what, maybe 300 would be a bad idea. I'm not perky, I can't be fucked to ask my parents if I could go out in the evening, and you're right, I still have to grieve over the yucky results I got. (GPA half of what I had for Semester One) It's like, school just adds to my value loss. Knowlegge learnt - minus infinity. Hey look at what Olevels did to me. I hate school, I hate Mechanical Engineering, I hate godfuckingmalechauvanistwhomakesmefeel*this*big.

I see Adam and he is having such a great time, just living, just being Adam. I want that. I want to be fun, be Ana. I don't want to be Rafhana. She's no fun. Ana is funny, Ana is fun, Ana does whatever she wants. I want Ana. (It's Ann-na, not Ah-na. I'm not trying to be so picky about it, but An-na just kinda stuck.) I don't even think I should even be here. I want roommates, I want awesome friends who speaks english and are witty. I don't want to be stuck in a dingy ole flat with my ma. This place that I'm at doesn't let me explore or be Ana. I miss good ole Ana who hung out and ate too much lauks and too little rice at the canteen. I miss good ole Ana who thought she was vegetarian. I miss the good ole Ana who joked about Brazilian wax and penises and it wouldn't be an offense to anyone. I miss my secondary school friends. =[ We were so smart and so witty and we loved bouncing breasts but hated Avril's big boobies. (*coughs*BudakCanadaTu*coughs*) (And I made up the bouncing breasts, haha) I miss the good ole Ana who liked to run and go to the gym. Now it's like, I can't make sex or racist jokes because they don't take it well. Everything is too gross. Fuck, I like gross. I like grinding dicks with a cheese shredders and make dick sushi.

Okay, well we're here now. I'm here. I was forced to grow up and I am not taking it too well.

By the way, I love you Chandler Bing. He has totally got that Johnny Depp nose going on.

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