I always tell myself that I was born in the wrong country. What makes me undesirable? I don't know, I guess stupid people who are blind? Adam says I'm cute as fuck, and Jimi would like to kiss me and promised me a first kiss as soon as I save enough to fly to UK, and Faye wants me to be her girlfriend. Everyone on ryl thinks I'm cute as fuck. I don't know why, it seems western people like me more than asian people do. Hell, I have more caucasian friends than asian friends.

Like they're so puzzled why I am always so alone and don't have many friends. Oh yeah- because I am THAT undesirable and disgusting. 'You're smart and interesting, compared to the idiots who live here,' she says. (Which, obviously, with all humility, I don't believe.)

And my house is like a screaming rampage. We scream at each other and I try hard not to kill anyone, Dad goes, 'Don't talk to your mother like that!' (Haha, Everybody Loves Raymond) My mother is some kind of a double genital hater and my dad hates gays (I adore gays), my sister thinks all malay speaking people are mats and minahs, my other sister is caught up in Korean songs, and I seem to be the only one who is so UN-Normal. I speak english, I adore english, I love english, I would love to be able to speak to my parents in english all the time, and I even dream in the in english language.

I think I'm meant to be born somewhere else. Where there is a freedom of speech and I could voice out my opinions, not like now.

"Mum you're so narrow! God gave her 2 genitals, it's not her fault, and how could you say she's a lousy director just because she had a penis once."

"Look how they're talking to me! You don't love me! (Cue for mum to weep and go inside room.)"

Gosh, I think we're a family of debaters, and my parents are the unwilling listeners. They're like, 'you listen to our opinions, and stick to that. ' "We hate gays, so you must too."

I'm so fucking sick and tired of that! Ahhhh FUCK.

Like whatever right? I can even spell F-U-C-K. Bet they didn't even know that.

Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! -There you go.

Okay, I realise I've gone out of point. I was on the topic on 'undesirable.'

Valentines day is the stupidest 'event' ever. I don't love anyone, so fuck off. I'm going to bash some lovebirds and eat their brains.

Labels: love bashing