As you know, I came from Cedar Girls, which was in band 1 category (did you know? Haha!) I love boasting somewhat about Cedar because it's great, and we have really nice uniforms and a gorgeous physics teacher(ahem). That was when I *was* in that kind of social circle. We (We, as in not I, but pretty much of us.) looked down on neighbourhood schools, as if it's like mud on your skirt, something like that. Haha, like *insert sec sch here*'s school uniform is similar to ours and it was like EEEE! I remember the people I know (I don't think they fit in the 'friend' category) squirming and whining about it. Lol. Hey, I did hate it too. I cringed being in the same train compartment with any of them. Haha, it's so silly looking back. Puffing out your chest to show the Cedar badge and walk rather proudly.

And then most of the people I know looked down on neighbourhood schools and the idea of going to Polytechnic was like eating shit. I'm ashamed to remember it, but there was loads of people like that. That was why when I couldn't go to a JC I felt so ashamed of myself and cut of all ties with people for quite a while. It was devastating. I was more consumed in 'what are they going to say?' instead of 'what choices should I make?' My father's side is really concerned and boastful about results and shit like that, so I was very embarassed and had no idea where to hide my face. I don't hate polytechnics at all, but they do. Gosh, I will be totally honest here. I hate, hate the fact that upperclass people like them think that poly kids are totally stupid and they can't be helped(my mum included.) Some of my friends are like that. And reading someone's blog today totally pissed me off. I truly believe that polytechnics open more doors for you, and certainly, it's not the end of my world. Period.

So shut the fuck up, any of you, thinking that the idea of poly and poly students is so revolting that you would rather die than enter one. Fine, I respect your opinions, since you think you are all that, but cut of all ties with me. It means you despise me too, and you know I don't tolerate shit like that. Fuck off. I don't care how close you were with me, but if you can't be more open, then sorry. I've had enough of 'upperclass' people.

And I shall be brutally honest again, being in my secondary school was the worst experience of my life. I never had friends, I was too weird for them, I was usually alone. It brought out 'bad habits' and depression. I hate myself, I hated everyone. And then when I entered poly, I was awed because people were a lot nicer and more accepting. I was like wow, they are amazing, what have I missed out on? Then I thought, hah, if I never went to a non-neighbourhood secondary school, I would've had better social skills, I would've had more friends. Even those not so close to me in poly right now are like how it was with the people who were closer to me in secondary school. And it's a pity back then, because it took 4 years to create that kind of friendship, but it took only months to create the same thing where I'm at now.

Hey no offence to some people from my school reading this. I meant *SOME*. This entry was meant to offend you 'upperclass' people. Hehe.

No really, I would rather be alone for the rest of my life, than spend time with people who look down on other people. If you think you're so good, I'm sure I'm better off without you. Haha.

Okay goodbye! I wanted to write something else actually. oh well.