That's it, the mechanics test sucked, and I flung it. I only finished ONE pathetic bloody question, and I don't even know if it's right or not. I thought I finally got it, but nooo, mind block. ARGH it's so stupid. Blahblahblah. 35% GONE. Poof! Just like that. I'm throwing my life away.

It means I have to slog and get that 65 remaining marks. Oh my god, that isn't even an A! Bloody shit. No I don't want to fail because it would mean I would have to give up my business and I don't want to because I'm hopelessly in love with it. Oh my god, NOOOOOO. Dontwantfaildontwantfaildontwantfail.

I'm not even the BIG fish in the small pond. If I can't even go through poly, I'm such a disgrace. I've evolved to be shit.

I don't want to be shit.

Okay after I hit this 'publish post' button I'm going to blackboard, do my gems, and then do electronics, then study for thermo. THERMO! I must not screw my life.

GRAHHHHH0971%&bsj$!!