Oh my oh my what am i doing here? oh yes, i thought i should let off some steam before i continue onmy thermo. i'm going to type really fast, so spelling mistakes would be common.

i crack under pressure. my hair is insane, i'm tired and sleepy and really panicking. i don't know how it suddenly came to this. i was never like this, every test is just another tutorial for me, and i took it easy and did ok. i guess today showed how much i'm lagging behind. it's no good. i'm dying. times like this i would've popped some pills and get knocked out. no pills, they're gone and i'm sick of them. i did my watercolour gems and it looks like shit, and I look like shit, i want to rip it apart and sleep in the heap of paper. when i opened my thermo notes it seemed so foreign to me, suddenly, i don't even know what density is equals to. i suddenly realised the pipe shit thing is in topic 1, and hell, it isn't too good for me. i'm such a mess at this moment my mind is aywire, nothing can get into my head, and i cant remember anything.

it also doesn;t help that today was incredibly shitty and i havent ate anything since breakfast. i wish i could kick my ass for today. i don't know, i don't know. i think i'm crazy.

i still have a shitting electronics presentation to do and i don't even now a single thing about electronics besides binary numbers.

oh my god, oh my god. when is semestral exams... i think not so far, and class tests and lab tests, and ahhhhhhh.

NOOOOOO.

noooo. i can't take it, i can't take it. i hate being lazy. i want to study everyday from now on.

i don't want to screw up my life.