I've had the most AMAZING friday and saturday. (((: hehehe will write about it privately later. butbutbut it's really lovely and exciting seeing Puppy after 15 days. He's grown bigger, more muscles, wider shoulders, biceps and acquired a great tushy. (Not that his tushy was lousy before cus he had the nicest tushy i've ever seen, just that now his tushy is greater and more fun to grope and adore lol. Sigh, if only my tushy can match up to his, but all I've got are lots of junk in my trunk. HAHAHAH.)

Sometimes I feel so lucky to have someone like puppy. Glances from aunties, makciks and many girls are annoying but fun. But most times I'm so grateful that i have him. Life is weird in a way you can live life never having or even tasting something. But once you've got it, you can't live without it. Something like my relationship with sambal belachan. lol.

I watched transformers 2. Hahaha when megan fox and the hot girls popped out I covered kwelvin's eyes with my hands! HAHA he was so annoyed!

Tomorrow is book in day. ):

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AHHHHHH FUCK.

God damn it I hope things dont fucking screw up. Because I want to see my boyfriend so fucking much this weekend. 2 weeks is ENOUGH.

I need a hug.

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last night was just as good as a proposal.

i'm so sleepy. and i miss my puppy.


6 days for him, 7 days for me. Next friday I have to work, so I have to endure the whole day and then meet my beloved later for dinner. He can't wait to see me. I can't wait to hug him and smell him.

My two winter whites have started fighting and it's a really hard time for all of us. They were so close, they play and sleep together, now we have to seperate them. We have to put one up for adoption because my room has no space for two cages :( I love both of them so so much. I dont want to give either one away but... sigh. I hate my father for being an animal hater. If not we could keep them somewhere else in the house.

If anyone can give merriweather or nickypoo (my hamsters) a good home, please do contact me. I really want a good home for one of them. They're both so sweet, so lovely and very cuddly.

I cut my hair today and I can't wait for kel to see it. I miss my old long hair though.

Night time is the best part of my day because I get to hear you. I get to know you're okay. I miss you so much, love. I can't wait for tomorrow night, and the next, and the next, and the next... till friday and I will make you a very happy boy.

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i am swooning lol.

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kel called for 7 minutes (: seven minutes in heaven. I've never been so happy to hear his voice.

gosh NS sucks.

Anyway today I went shopping with my sister! I spent about $139 hahaha. It's so hard to resist anything when you have so many 50 dollar bills stuffed in your wallet. I got 5 tops, 2 cardigans, 2 belts. oooohlala. bye to 'baby shirts' as kel likes to call them. Now my feet are tired and my eyes are droopy, I just want to curl up into a ball like my hamsters and sleep. Shopping is a good way to turn my mind off things. For a moment, I know that I have another life to get to. I have about 9 days to enjoy myself :)
Looking forward to the new job, and also looking forward to the 25th, when Love books out of army (:

I've never held so many shopping bags in my life like today. My sister got herself more things so it was really fun going out. I rarely shop, so I've forgotten how it feels like lol.

I'm on a diet of sandwiches and more sandwiches. need...to...lose...weight....

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Today kelvin went to NS. He called me and messaged me at the jetty. At 9.50pm he called me again from camp. It was so nice to hear his voice. So glad he's okay so far. Now it's midnight, I bet he is asleep on that new bed in tekong.

This afternoon me and my sister bought a new cage for our hamsters. The cheap one was really worrying us so we got a CritterTrailONE and it's so awesome. They're really enjoying it and there's a petting zoo at the top. Guess what we named them? One is very very naughty and she likes to climb and she also bites! The other is very nice and when she's eating she'll let us stroke her and carry her. The naughty one is called NickyPOO (after nick carter) and the lovely girl is called MerryWeather (after sleeping beauty's blue fairy.) Well they really love the new cage and are playing alot, it's too cute. The cage was bloody expensive btw.

We put nickypoo into the transparent ball to walk around the house and she went completely berserk. lol. but when it was merryweather's turn she was really curious about her surroundings and went to sniff things and walked around the whole house. they are so cute, especially when they sleep.

Monday, tuesday, wednesday was spent with kelvin. It's tough thinking that things will stay this way for 2 bloody years. At night I'll be alone and when I'm sad I have no kelvin to go to. Last night was especially hard. I just kept bursting into tears because I missed him already. Sigh.

Then later that night his aunt and her son and kwelvin drove to woodlands to pick me up for supper. It was so nice of her. Today he called to wake me up and then he went. Whoooosh into tekong and the tekong chalet and into NS and two freaking years of being imprisoned because he's the son of the nation blahblah. He said something really nice last night and i cant stop smiling, however painful reality is. The thing about boys (or maybe just my boy or strong unemotional men) is that they don't exactly tell you how they feel about certain things, so you think they dont care about you or have no feelings, but actually deep inside they do feel and care. It takes a great deal of guts or a crisis to hear them say things that would make you swoon.

In my case it cleared up some things and it made me really happy, cared for and loved (:

This is a super long post but I also would like to add that I START WORK ON THE 22ND JUNE!!! The jobsearch has come to a halt. I dont want to be negative about it because I'm kind of excited lol. The only downside is that it's shift work so on weekends me and kel have got to work something out. other than that, YAY MONEY!

I am also sick of negative pessimistic people. From now on I will surround myself with positivity and happiness. will only talk to positive people from now on, esp people who wont make me sulk or add more worries to my weary brain.

luv you puppy!

god i'm so into myself sometimes.

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Tomorrow kelvin goes to army.

i love you sososo much. ):


I have collected my hamsters! My sister and I are sharing and they are so naughty! They're really tiny, just 3 weeks old, but oh so mischievious! I was having a headache watching them run around in the cage and going up and down and up and down, and grabbing onto the metal bars with their tiny hands and swinging like it's a monkey bar. One sister was tired so she slept in the house, but the other one kept running around and making so much noise that she woke her sister up. So after ALOT of rustling and the sound of metal cages being chewed on, they are finally asleep! SO CUTE. They're sleeping beside each other in the house, curled up in a ball.

We havent gotten names for them yet, but one is really more naughty than the other! Hopefully they will settle down in their new home soon, so we can start holding them hehe.

Edit after typing all this: They're awake again!!! oh no

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I find that as your life becomes less pathetic, your blog posts get more boring. I have no unrequited stories to tell you, no complaining about everyday mundane things, like how the kitchen utensils have ganged up against me and how my life is a complete mess. Yay for me!

But I am having a huge writer's block. I haven't written anything good in months. It's awfully tragic, I feel like I cannot do anything.

My mother is annoying. I hate to tell my parents anything. But she knows. I told K and he said OH NO, but ahyah whatever la, as long as my mother is happy. She's so scared no one will marry me and apparently while I was out last night, she was having a discussion about K during dinner. According to my spies (sis and sis) she said 'ah actually I don't mind Kelvin. Nanti dier boleh masuk islam.'

Like wtf MUM! All these stupid islamic talk is seriously bumming me out. He is a really handsome catholic and he loves jesus and st francis. I am not a missionary, I will not convert anyone. Geez. It's incredibly selfish that someone has to convert to get married.

See, now I'm annoyed.

really fucking annoyed. I'm going to sleep this out and let K laugh at this.

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