So Kelvin (from now on he shall be called 'K') is going NS right? No problemo. Or so I thought. It shouldn't be so bad that I can see K on weekends right? Sigh.

It never occured to me that while he's in ns, I can't speak to him all the time, and whenever I would need him, he can't be there for me. Now when I'm sad or gloomy I can count on K to make me laugh and smile. You know I don't rely alot on any of my friends emotionally. Probably they're always busy with their significant others or their important lives, or maybe I'm not comfortable with having such openess with them that I bare all my feelings and emotions. I have alot of issues with my mother and K has always been there to make me feel better. Sigh now I'm losing my soulmate because he is a Singaporean boy.

And what's more stupid is that he got his enlistment date less than two months before the day itself. 3 weeks of K being in tekong should be fine because I will try to get myself really busy so that time will fly past really fast. I mean everything is just so depressing. They're taking him away from me so fast :( And with my week long job gig it's going to be faster till june 10th. why can't they wait for my birthday then chuck him in?

I'm gloooomy. I'll get a fast paced job. And work like mad so that 2 years will fly past fast. that's going to be when i'm 22?

hbefrbrjtl5l6nglntnl. If you know of any support groups pls tell me if I'm too uncool to join.

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puppy, thanks for the lil' gift the other day. It was really nice that you got that for me. I felt so moved because you probably got that because you cared for me. I bet you've never given any of your mambo50 something like that! Lol. So I don't mind you calling me bitch and momok when we're in the gym and I'm asking you to do more reps!

Labels: ns, sad