Graduation Day was today. Seating really sucked because I was nowhere near chattable people (besides reeve.) Haha I was surprised to hear a couple of 'wooo' when I walked on stage to receive an empty scroll box from the director. Don't really know why though, only that I was notorious for being 'kelvin loh's malay gf', or perhaps I've had some other acheivements that I know not of.

Ugh I didn't even stay to take pictures because I was so lazy and I wanted to sleep. But my parents were being so annoying they kept asking me to join this and that and buy professional pictures. And asking why kelvin shaved his head and where he went to and stuff like that. But after that dad was nice because he asked if I wanted to go out to celebrate (like hahaha.)

I'm depressed now. I really miss school and being a kid. And K is all pissed off and screaming 'fuck, fuck, fuck' like a spoilt brat, so I'm bored.

And I'm so fucking pissed off that I don't have a job yet. I'm going to be school-less for a year or so, this is really getting to my head. I'm so tempted to not take SATs and just apply for SIM. Oh god, life is so arduous, I don't really know why we live anyway.

14 days till tekong. After 14 days, no more calling whenever I want to, no more skyping all night, no more going out on weekdays... just 3 weeks of nothing- just 5 minute calls (shit damn it, I'm like a mum seeing her son going to army. I'm so worried!)

I shall go back to bed now. Sunday night dinner at carousel. Awesome.

Labels: army, bored, school

Did a little banner to link me soap blog. Hehe. I think I'm going to get a digital scale sometime next week. After that I can make soap/lotions/bodyscrubs like craaaaazy. I'm a bath and body fan, can't you tell? Will not buy bodyshop stuff anymore because they put so much PARABEN and chemicals in there.

Crap, I've been so lazy to update blogspot, not like there's anything to update about and you'll probably get sick of my 'ahhhhh i love K, oooh I miss K, ohhh I had such a good day with K!!!' Because well, I'm getting sick of myself as well.

And being in love can be the best thing and the most terrible thing. Sometimes I think like wtf was I thinking. Where are my johnny depp, christian bale, david wenham, gerard butler days?! I'm drawing johnny depp actually. Hope it works out because I have not drawn for a very very long time.

When I went out with K yesterday I couldnt stop touching his head and when I got upset he'll just go 'NAH, GO PLAY WITH MY HEAD!' lol we saw dre with his gf hehe. (after that dre went online and asked me why i dont hold hands with K.) He has dirty hands omg thats why.

I have money I want to buy clothes and lose weight. And dye my hair and get a digital perm. lol

Labels: happy talk, love bashing

My kelvin shaved his hair off. I was very sad to know because he did not prepare me for this. BUT THEN....





OMG SO HANDSOME CAN. I DIDNT KNOW MY KELVIN LOH WAS THIS HANDSOME. HAHAHAH. Now I'm swooning as if I'm having a crush on him all over again. SOOOOOOO CUTEEEEEE.

Labels: kelvin

OMG we've got a new trampoline!

Using flash sucks cus now we've got the scary demon red eyes.


woohoo!


jumping in nj uniform. so unglamourous


cus hello kitty lagi glamourous. I was supposed to do the 'storm' look when she flies lol.

I'm looking for a full-time job. Sigh, I dont want to bask in the happiness of people whos going to uni. I will soap for a living if I made 1000 a month to buy soap supplies!

Labels: blah

I'm feeling shitty. And fucked up.

I feel like chloe in samantha who.

I made more soap. more on my soap blog.

Labels: depressing, i'm sorry i can't be fucked, soap

So Kelvin (from now on he shall be called 'K') is going NS right? No problemo. Or so I thought. It shouldn't be so bad that I can see K on weekends right? Sigh.

It never occured to me that while he's in ns, I can't speak to him all the time, and whenever I would need him, he can't be there for me. Now when I'm sad or gloomy I can count on K to make me laugh and smile. You know I don't rely alot on any of my friends emotionally. Probably they're always busy with their significant others or their important lives, or maybe I'm not comfortable with having such openess with them that I bare all my feelings and emotions. I have alot of issues with my mother and K has always been there to make me feel better. Sigh now I'm losing my soulmate because he is a Singaporean boy.

And what's more stupid is that he got his enlistment date less than two months before the day itself. 3 weeks of K being in tekong should be fine because I will try to get myself really busy so that time will fly past really fast. I mean everything is just so depressing. They're taking him away from me so fast :( And with my week long job gig it's going to be faster till june 10th. why can't they wait for my birthday then chuck him in?

I'm gloooomy. I'll get a fast paced job. And work like mad so that 2 years will fly past fast. that's going to be when i'm 22?

hbefrbrjtl5l6nglntnl. If you know of any support groups pls tell me if I'm too uncool to join.

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puppy, thanks for the lil' gift the other day. It was really nice that you got that for me. I felt so moved because you probably got that because you cared for me. I bet you've never given any of your mambo50 something like that! Lol. So I don't mind you calling me bitch and momok when we're in the gym and I'm asking you to do more reps!

Labels: ns, sad